> What does your “projects I need to do before I die” list look like? How distracted are you from it?
I want to develop and self-publish a game that has the feeling of atmosphere and rich mechanical-discovery my favorite games made me feel in the past.
I also want to animate a whimsical, fun short film.
I am working on game projects, but I’m distracted in an emotional sense. Positive associations I had in the past are suddenly negative. I’m not getting lost in the moment as I used to. Likely time will move this forward, and may especially existential motivations (this is no way to live, only to die).
Stuck in old ideas: I do find myself comfort-sketching ideas, but part of me also always pushes for that which is new, difficult, and risky. By leaving the comfort zone, I think I appreciate what is in the comfort zone more. It feels like a yin-and-yang relationship that they build on each other. I enjoyed what you wrote about old ideas, though perhaps they aren’t my current issue:
The positive becoming negative seems related to life circumstances — expanding on emotional distraction, I was betrayed by someone I shared a lot of excitement with, and I can’t feel excitement in the same way without remembering that. So, perhaps that means they *are* old ideas, now! Or perhaps the betrayal is an old idea, to stretch the meaning of idea. Or perhaps I simply need a different lens, and they’re perfectly dated ideas. Still finding that out :)
My projects themselves are not negative, and I think there’s something in my brain that rejuvenates “initial excitement” over and over as if I just started the project. My current game is 7 months into development and I can still wake up the next morning and feel excited about what’s next for it.
For what I do: I’ve practiced digital painting, animating, low-level programming, and I’ve finished a few game-jam submissions. I could post a bunch of links, but with where I’m at in life, I think I’d rather show it directly if that sounds fun;
I actually drafted (but not yet finished) an email in response to your last week post’s call for playtesters, so if it sounds good, I could show a few things during a playtesting call if we make it there!
Otherwise, I completely understand the weight of the added commitment this imposes as opposed to poking a few links ;)
It can be tough to get back in the ring after going through something emotional like that. I hope you'll feel better with some time and perspective.
Keeping that early-project-excitement for 7 months sounds super nice! Guess it could depend on a lot of stuff too, like how much you tend to work on it or maybe it's the perfect project/idea for you? Sounds a bit like you're usually like that though hehe
Playtest + seeing your stuff sounds super fun! I'd love to do that, feel free to just shoot me that email and suggest a time. :- )
I’m excited to see the completion of the first of those games, and the progression of the other two!
Thanks Grant! I'm excited too. :- )
The other two projects are actually comics! I think I've got stronger feelings about stories than games.
> What does your “projects I need to do before I die” list look like? How distracted are you from it?
I want to develop and self-publish a game that has the feeling of atmosphere and rich mechanical-discovery my favorite games made me feel in the past.
I also want to animate a whimsical, fun short film.
I am working on game projects, but I’m distracted in an emotional sense. Positive associations I had in the past are suddenly negative. I’m not getting lost in the moment as I used to. Likely time will move this forward, and may especially existential motivations (this is no way to live, only to die).
Are you too stuck in old ideas? Is that why you feel like positive has become negative?
I like and relate to the types of projects you wanna do. But I'm getting the feeling that you might be struggling a bit right now.
For me projects tend to become more negative the longer I work on them, especially games. The initial excitement wears off a bit.
Can I see your work anywhere? You got me curious.
Stuck in old ideas: I do find myself comfort-sketching ideas, but part of me also always pushes for that which is new, difficult, and risky. By leaving the comfort zone, I think I appreciate what is in the comfort zone more. It feels like a yin-and-yang relationship that they build on each other. I enjoyed what you wrote about old ideas, though perhaps they aren’t my current issue:
The positive becoming negative seems related to life circumstances — expanding on emotional distraction, I was betrayed by someone I shared a lot of excitement with, and I can’t feel excitement in the same way without remembering that. So, perhaps that means they *are* old ideas, now! Or perhaps the betrayal is an old idea, to stretch the meaning of idea. Or perhaps I simply need a different lens, and they’re perfectly dated ideas. Still finding that out :)
My projects themselves are not negative, and I think there’s something in my brain that rejuvenates “initial excitement” over and over as if I just started the project. My current game is 7 months into development and I can still wake up the next morning and feel excited about what’s next for it.
For what I do: I’ve practiced digital painting, animating, low-level programming, and I’ve finished a few game-jam submissions. I could post a bunch of links, but with where I’m at in life, I think I’d rather show it directly if that sounds fun;
I actually drafted (but not yet finished) an email in response to your last week post’s call for playtesters, so if it sounds good, I could show a few things during a playtesting call if we make it there!
Otherwise, I completely understand the weight of the added commitment this imposes as opposed to poking a few links ;)
Have a nice day
It can be tough to get back in the ring after going through something emotional like that. I hope you'll feel better with some time and perspective.
Keeping that early-project-excitement for 7 months sounds super nice! Guess it could depend on a lot of stuff too, like how much you tend to work on it or maybe it's the perfect project/idea for you? Sounds a bit like you're usually like that though hehe
Playtest + seeing your stuff sounds super fun! I'd love to do that, feel free to just shoot me that email and suggest a time. :- )